Do you ever feel like you are Undesciplined? Inconsistent? Unorganized?

I do.  I wish I wasn’t, but the cold hard truth is…..I am.  It is a terrible fault with a tremendous domino affect.

I slept in way too many  mornings this week, and it threw off my whole routine.  Because my routine was off,  my house got really messy. Messier than usual.  Because my house got really messy, I was in a baaaaddd  mood.  Because I was in a bad mood, I was short with the people I love the most.  Then I didn’t sleep well because I was all unsettled.  No peace.  So I slept in the next morning and so on, and so on.  But never really feeling rested.

Wait, I forgot. I don’t have a routine.  Well, not a well-oiled one.  It’s funny because I was a nurse in my pre stay-at-home-mom days.  And let me tell you, nurses have well-oiled routines.  Me included.  All my “t” ’s were crossed, and all my “i” ’s were dotted.  Even when un-expected things happened.  Sure there were times when tasks got passed on to the next shift,  but those were rare exceptions.

 Here at home, it’s the norm. And I can’t help but wonder why that is.  Do I really need to have external pressure to do the things I need to do?  If so, it stinks.  I thought by 40 I would be more mature than that.

Which begs another question…what kind of example am I setting for my kids?  Self-discipline, consistency, organization.  The ability to do what needs to be done when it is time to do it whether you feel like it or not is really the mark of a true adult. Isn’t it?  And to do the task with love and kindness as unto the glory of God is the mark of a mature christian. Isn’t it?

I think I’ve missed the mark.

But one quality I do posess (by God’s grace and my parents’ modeling).

Persistence.

If I’m alive, then the target is still there and I’ll just keep adjusting my aim. This week my goal is to go to bed at the same time every night and get up at the same time every day. 

 ”This is the lesson: never give in, never give in, never, never, never, never—in nothing, great or small, large or petty—never give in except to convictions of honour and good sense. Never yield to force; never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy.”

Winston Churchill,  HarrowSchool,  October 29, 1941 (emphasis mine)

I just love Winston churchill.  And there is no reason why a home-maker can’t be inspired by his speeches.

Blessings,

Wuzza